Answers to prayers

The last few days have been really hard to get through. I prayed many many times for comfort and strength and to not feel alone. I was able to chat with two good friends online through most of the day yesterday and that helped me to not feel alone. I got an email from friend giving me ideas for fun things to do and telling me that I am special and that Heavenly Father loves me. I also got a phone call out of the blue from a friend. And although I didn't dare answer when I saw her name because I knew I wouldn't be able to speak, I know she was inspired to call me when she did. Just seeing her name on the caller id and hearing her message made me feel so loved and cared about. I am so grateful for the gospel, for prayer, for the Atonement of Jesus Christ, and for such wonderful, caring friends that I can turn to when I need them.

A good review

I had a 90-day "touch base" and a "review" at work tonight. Both were just great. I learned that the supervisors do realize the work I am doing and that they consider me a self-starter, and a hard worker. I felt so great to know that my work is appreciated and that they really notice what I am doing. It made me more confident and made the night go better. I love meeting expectations and making things better for other people even if I don't know it. And to top it off I get a few more cents per hour on my check starting in a couple weeks. Every little bit helps and I count it as a great blessing.

Music

I am grateful for music. So many times I can turn on some music and it lifts my mood. I especially love turning it up and singing at the top of my lungs (this is also helpful to drown out whining chilren). I accomplish more and have a better day if I play music in the morning. It truly affects me for the good and for that I am thankful.

Counting Blessings

Feeling the way I have been feeling lately causes me to not think about my blessings often enough. I have been dwelling on the negative things and worrying about things I don't have and stuff like that. So today's post is a list of my blessings that I can think of. Make your own list. I'm sure you'll feel better once you're done.

April's Blessings
June 3, 2008

~ The gospel of Jesus Christ
~ Jesus Christ, our Savior
~ The Atonement
~ Scriptures
~ The Temple
~ Journals
~ A strong body
~ A mind able to think
~ A family
~ A wonderful husband
~ sweet and beautiful children
~ A roof over my head (it's raining today)
~ Always having food to eat
~ The beautiful earth
~ All the colors I can see
~ My eyes - so that I can see the colors
~ My nose - I can smell so many wonderful things
~ Hugs
~ Kisses
~ Awesome friends
~ good books
~ Cartoons - a distraction for the kids and fun to watch too
~ Technology - so I can be close to friends and family even though they're really far away
~ Fuzzy slippers
~ chocolate :)
~ frogs that croak outside my house
~ birds
~ flowering trees
~ springtime
~ warm weather
~ visiting family
~ Prophets
~ Music
~ sleep
~ The Holy Ghost
~ choices
~ chances to do better
~ cameras - to catch special moments
~ a warm, soft bed to sleep in
~ good afternoon naps
~ shoes
~ peaceful moments
~ patience when I have some
~ forgiveness
~ tithing

My mind is now blank. I'm sure there are some things that I forgot or overlooked. But those are my blessings for today :)

My sweet children

I was worried they would turn into little monsters after Grandpa went home the other day. I have underestimated them. They were all a little crabby yesterday but they weren't monsters either. They are really so sweet and kind and loving. Today they were all awake before me. Kamaryn and Kyler were all dressed too. They have been pretty cheerful and playing together well today. So I am grateful for their sweetness today.

A Great Father-in-Law

Trev's dad has been here with us since last Tuesday. He is leaving tomorrow night and it's going to be hard for me. He's been so helpful with the kids. They have really enjoyed playing with him and going on walks and everything too. He's always so interesting in what they are doing and he loves to play with them. It's been nice to have another adult to watch the kids if I need to get something done. I'm really going to miss him. I'm grateful for him. He's always so easy to talk to and be around. So easy going and so accepting and appreciative. It's nice. I wish our family was closer so we could spend more time around all of them. But this week has been really great and special. And I feel more relaxed than I have in a while. Love ya Dad :) Thanks.

Forgiving Children

Today was not a good day. I've been feeling down in the dumps for a while now and today was the worst day. Trev and his Dad went out for the day and I just felt like I yelled at children for the entirety of the day. I felt so awful and guilty, like the most awful mother on earth. (Insert giant depressed frown/scowl here). But I am so grateful for my children. I was terrible to them all day and at one point Kamaryn just started hugging and kissing me. She wouldn't stop.. hee hee. It made me smile and relax a bit. She's usually not all that lovey with anyone so it was kinda unusual. But I couldn't help but feel that she was in tune with the spirit even after I had obviously lost it. I am grateful that they always know I love them even when I feel like I've been stretched to my absolute limits. I just hope I can feel better soon and not get so frustrated so easily. And I hope I can be as forgiving and show as much unconditional love to them as they do every day to me.